So, it has been a very long time since I have wrote anything in here. I haven't seen you for nearly 3 months. I'd like to say that I am over you, but I am not. I don't think I ever will be. If you walked into my vision at any moment, I do believe my heart would melt all over again. My thoughts would turn to mush and my heart would pound a thousand times louder than normal, I'd blush and feel overwhelmed with even just the sight of you. You have no idea what this does to me. I keep wondering if you read this that day I slipped up and sent the email with the address to this attached. I would like to think that you did, but then again, I am embarrassed if you did. It is better for you not to know. Then you won't think I am ridiculous. I know that I am. I have been doing a lot of different things to calm the muddled emotions that cloud up my head. Summer has been good to me in that respect. The longer I don't see you, the better. Maybe.