Written 8/20/09::

Sometimes I wish I had nothing to lose. I wish that I could just pick up my stuff and move on. With no worries, no regrets. I wonder what that would be like. I know what I would be like. I would be free. Happy.
I would write forever and ever. I would find a way to make a living and make all my dreams come true, all on my own.
I would love and be loved. I would have excitement back in my life. I would do things I had never been brave enough to do before. I would get what I wanted out of this life and no one, no ONE would stop me.
I would have the strength to walk away from an old life and create a new one. I would have the guts to say when I am not happy. I would have the guts to change it.