So after writing things out and "talking" things through so to speak through my blog, I have realized two things. I am never going to have a chance with said love, and again, must reiterrate that I have a happy man in my life willing to stay with me even though I feel slightly buried in this body. He seems to love me still and I never know why.

I am getting over it....very slowly, but surely! Doesn't change a bit how I have felt. It does however make my life a bit easier knowing that I live for a purpose.

That is really all that I can say today...not many words today.
Everything happens for a reason! (sigh)