Focus on the pieces of Peace

I am inspired to reminisce in the moments of peace that I find in my life. The moments where I see my children sleeping and they look so angelic. It's when I stroke the hair away from my daughters cheek and tuck it behind her ear and she looks like a sleeping porcelain china doll. The times I rub my sons back and sing "Hush Little Baby" to him until he sleeps. It is peaceful and it is quiet. I used to rock and sing Olivia to sleep years ago and sit a while longer, holding her praying to God. I realized how much I loved those little ones. Also, during this time, I was in love with God and we were close. I was at peace. I would never have thought that could change. But it is lost and and I am on the journey to find it. I know where it is, but I scared to reach out grab it. Peace is just a moment away. But I am terrified to rest in it. That sounds like an oxymoron. But it is the truth. My children need me to find this peace. They are falling apart as well as I. I am challenged to find this within only a few days time. The remedy to a successful marriage and calm, compliant family life is for me to focus on the pieces of peace I find in my life. The kisses, the hugs, the laughter, the smiles, the joy, and the heart of my life. It is written in God's word that the pure in heart see God, and the peacemakers are called the sons of God. It also states that those who hunger for his righteousness shall be filled. Matthew 5:3-11 is a promise that I intend to hold close to my heart. Most people know it as the passage of beatitudes.
The thing is that God has never left me and He is still in love with me. But I have grown lax and fallen out of deepest love for him, because I have been selfish and I am wasting his precious time. It's time to fall in love with Him again. And everything else will fall into place. Psalm 119:9-11 says "How can a person cleanse his way? By taking heed to Your word, with my whole heart I have sought you, let me not wander from your commandments, your word I hide in my heart, that I might not sin against you". Psalm 139 tells me how much he knows me: "You are acquainted with all my ways". Psalm 71:5 says "For you are my hope, O Lord God; You are my trust from my youth." In the next passage, we receive a promise: Isaiah 40:31 "But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint."

It is now the time to find him, to rest in his peace, his strength. To focus on the peace that he give us. It is the challenge to seek Him. It is time to fall in love all over again.