Funny how things work...how things happen.
I haven't been able to sleep for days. I finally fall asleep to the sound of your voice or how I remember it to sound. I look at the clock and it's 3 a.m., and I lay there still wide awake. I toss and turn, toss and turn, trying to figure it all out. I can't get comfortable. If I turn the fan off, I am incredibly hot..but with it on, I am fiercely cold. I just wish that you were there encompassing me into your arms. I wrap the sheet around me, so that there is barely anything touching my skin. The comforter is to heavy. I fall asleep somewhere around 3:30 a.m....and awake again at 5 a.m. freezing. I am immune to the warmth the sheet has given me and must retrieve the comforter. Again, I lie awake...thinking of you.
It's hard to explain. I wish that I could just tell you. Wish that you knew. I saw you sitting there last night, in my dream, just as you were the first day we had a real conversation.
Oh how I have missed you.
You have been on my mind constant and sure.
When I see your parents, as I did yesterday, so close, so personal....I see you in them. It makes me miss you that much more.
Will I never be able to tell you this? When and if I do, what will you say? How would you react?
I miss you.....forgive me....but I do.

I thought of you lot this week...especially today..
For no particular reason.
Just thought of you.
I have missed you. Wish that I could see you.
That might be a bad idea...my heart would probably only break that much more.
I thought of your laugh...your smile.
Why did I have to fall in love?
There was nothing and there is nothing I can do about.
Love knows no boundaries though. It just happens.
It takes a person to stop it from coming into fruition.
I miss your eyes.
They pierced my heart.
You have no idea how much it hurts.
Knowing that I never told you, wishing that I had...
But knowing that I couldn't...
I love you today the same as always...you will always be in my heart, Love.